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A road with red trees
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Blue drum
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Shaman house
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Shaman house with barbed wire
October 11, 2010
I went early this morning to visit a Shaman in a Tibetan refugee camp. When I arrived, I was asked to wait in his home as he was with another patient. His daughter, Danzin, spoke fluent English and was truly a treasure. She was home for 15 days from school in Kathmandu. She reminded me of myself when I was her age. She is torn between continuing her education and joining a Tibetan religious life. Our conversation was deep and meaningful, yet lighthearted. I felt such kindredness to her, unlike what I have felt with very many people in my life. Once again the wonder of it all fills me. The arrow hitting the target of my dreams and desires.
She has a dream of recording her father’s stories of what Tibet was life before the occupation. She feels a longing to share the teachings her father shares with her passed down from 100 BC. We sat together for an hour and then after my session she walked me around the small encampment answering all of my questions with a willing smile. So eager to share. It reminded me of a time when I walked Markham through a Catholic church, explaining everything I could about the symbolism behind the rituals and ceremonies.
When it was time for her father to receive me, I told him that my shoulder was aching. I had wondered in the past few days if I had dislocated it or just pulled a muscle. I also reported a need to have my lungs cleared as I have been wheezing and hacking since my arrival. The mold and mildew of Peru have compromised them, and they have always been my weak spot. Tropical climates are hard on my body, which is a comment he shared with me after the session. Twice during ceremonies, the grief held in my lungs has surfaced to be cleared.
His assistant prepared the altar, which he allowed me to video, and then I was asked to put my camera away. Two other women were in the room and, as fate would have it, I had been helpful to one of them who was trying to find her friend at the build. I recognized her and reminded her of our interaction. She is from Utah and has been to this village every year making a documentary and trying to help these people. Danzin had explained that although they are allowed to live peacefully in their village, they have little opportunity for advancement without citizenship and cannot leave the country. They are looked down upon in a Hindu cast system as being below the lowest, and it impacts self-esteem and desire to live outside the familiarity of the refugee camp. She spoke of her longing to resurrect what life was like when her people lived in tents and roamed the mountains of Tibet. All romantic notions of a 16 year old who has been enthralled by her father’s recollections of a happier time when their people were free and had a strong cultural identity.
I hesitate to share my experience during the healing, but suffice it to say that it felt very authentic and powerful. I tried to empty out and meditate throughout the experience holding the empty mind. Her father’s aura was all over the place and for a brief moment, I felt as if I was being sucked into a tornado with energy swirling from within my body and lifting me into a delirious, disoriented expansion.
Halfway through the seeion, he put a bizarre looking hat on his head and became other wordly. His face became fierce and the whites of his eyes looked cloudy blue. It was a little disconcerting as the intensity was directed at me as he commanded me to do different things to give him access to my injuries. Much like the Lakota medicine man I worked with long ago, his techniques mirrored almost exactly what I have witnessed. I was unsettled and a little panicked as the crescendo of the drumming, bell ringing and chanting escalated. People were shouting translations to me and being halfway between worlds, there was a delay in my ability to respond. I was not resisting, I just had trouble processing what was being asked of me. The fierceness in his eyes prompted a little fear and my heart rate pounded as he touched different acupressure points. My cognitive mind was trying ot memorize his movements so I could repeat them for myself. After the session, I could not retrieve any information that I had tried to save. I was grateful that it was over.
His daughter, the assistant and the two women present were all reminding me of his recommendations which all seemed rote and not specific to my situation. With the exception of an ointment he told me to purchase at the apothecary. I am currently following the instructions to let the sun activate the ointment for 30 minutes.
To say that it was an intense experience would be an understatement! After following his prescription to do a chant 108 times 3 times a day, I fell asleep in my room at 1:30 today. Escaping into the unconscious world was welcomed relief as my mind was spinning with all that has transpired. The number 108 was used in ceremonies from the Lakota and Andean ceremonies I have experienced, and I am reassured that unification is in process on planet Earth.
In my enthusiasm, I offered him the same amount of money that I get paid for a pampering session which was probably inappropriate as it translates into a lot more in rupies. My heart wanted to give him the same appreciation that people express for my healing.
I did not experience any miraculous healing, but it sure was a movie in 3D. I am curious about what is in the ointment I bought for about 30 cents. It is soothing the ache that has been waking me up the past few nights.
This trip would not have been possible without your generosity, and it has inspired a lot of gifting on my part. I never asked if I could learn with him, but I am scheduled to return in three days.
I took a video of riding the community bus down for you to experience. It is a trip. You will also get the thrilling experience in a taxi following a motorcycle with a guy holding a ladder. I thought it was going to come sailing through the windshield when we made a sudden stop. Needless to say, I am grateful that I got home in one piece.
The wonderful thing about having these cultural experiences is that each of them is a once in a lifetime opportunity. The drawback is that they inevitably involve diarrhea, so I will be sticking close to my toilet tonight drinking juice and GSE.