Hummingbird Journals

Jesus

December 17, 2009

    The photo is of Jesus buying Coca leaves. I went with him to a nursing home to visit a holy man. When he greeted me he told Jesus that I was a good woman and that I have many big spirits with me. It is like having a ticket or a pass with Jesus. He is teaching me every day. The approval of the old man had a very positive effect.
We went through the whole place gifting candy and coca leaves. We were greeted with such enthusiasm and joy. They take off their hats or have small pouches to hold the leaves. I had a couple of old women who just kept squealing and hugging me. It warmed my heart to know that we brightened their day.
     Then he took me to an astrological site. It was a large round rock that had stairs carved into it. The top was flat with two circles indented. One representing the moon and one the sun. We offered 4 coca leaves and he explained that there are four worlds. The under world of the dead, the world in which we live, the sky to which we send our prayers and receive guidance and infinity. The hummingbird governs the highest world.
     He also taught me that the three most important attributes to cultivate are: intuition, imagination and inspiration.
     We went up to some caves that were used for fasting and prayer. They were very beautiful. Sophia and I explored them and she drummed and we sang.. It turns out that they are on the way to the temple of the moon and very near where I live. I had been curious about that path.
     It was an easy flowing day. The only glitch was when I went to break a hundred sole bill before going to the market. I went to two banks and four money exchange places and everyone said it was counterfeit and no good. It came from an ATM. Not sure if I have any recourse. I will ask Jesus if he can help me. It was no problem because I found a market that would take my credit card which has a credit on it each month.

sacred perspectives

December 18, 2009 

     I spent the day at the most sacred temple called Qorikancha. I am fascinated by the way the indigenous beliefs were incorporated by the Catholic church here. Literally a huge cathedral encompasses the ruins of this sacred place. So different from the obliteration in the US at places like Chimayo..
     The golden statue of a 12 year old boy with a door in his chest that held sacred ashes is gone. As well as the silver and gold which once adorned the temples.
     On the solstice people brought a rock to receive blessings and to gather the energies of the universe. They would later sculpt it into a figure.
     They went to a river to purify and they fasted while here eating only a type of porridge. They held a bowl in one hand and a stick in the other that caught the energy of the sun on this auspicious day.
     Kollanas were the leaders of all of the temples and being here we connect with everything that was lost from their books of knowledge  because it is still alive in this place. Their teachings include three levels of awareness.
          Imata- living in communion with the highest perfection of the universe. (Enlightenment).
          Imaru- Your own knowledge. Many responsibilities come with knowledge.  The most pure energy is here and it calls the energy of the stones so they can speak with us to increase our understanding.
          Ime-Is reciprocity. You give your best to the world and the world gives the best to you.
     Jesus explained that you have to look with your heart because this place calls in the spirits of each person who enters. We chewed coca leaves to begin our prayers and chanted, “hiyo boya” 3 times. Coca connects us with the universe to guide us and build intuition. It was used for initiations. Coca in the bath purifies.. The shape and size of the leaf gives it meaning. Determines if it is used for good or bad purposes.
     The puma, snake and hummingbird are venerated here and there is a beautiful garden outside where they are sculpted into the grass. Puma walks in silence. Many temptations come when you walk a spiritual life, he explained. The puma brings humility. Puma gives us strength for our earth walk.
     We chanted, “Com kitachay” as we began walking through the sacred temples. First was the temple of the lightening bolt which opens you. The next temple of water was used by high the priestess. Next, Sophia, who walks with rainbow medicine, drummed in the temple of the rainbow. Then we entered the temple of the stars which holds a special doorway to the time of the sun
     There is a beautiful painting of Mau, the Milky Way. The Inca focused more on the dark spaces in the night sky called yana phuyu, (black clouds). There was a frog, snake, llama with a baby in their cosmology. They believed that all animals had a representation in the night sky.
Jesus guided us in chanting and feeling the presence of energy in each space. Unlike the other tourists moving through the space we took time to be present to it and to try to connect with the ancient wisdom that reverberates through these massive halls.
     Sweet charity met me at the door when I arrived home. Rajne had asked if I could pay both months up front so that he could buy a refrigerator. I felt happy to see that my contribution had delivered a brand new machine to make life easier for he and his family. I did a thorough job of cleaning the kitchen this morning and got to take a little Spanish lesson with his five year old daughter over breakfast. I am becoming a part of the family. I am blessed to call this my home until March.

feather cleansing

December 19, 2009 

    We visited the home of the eagle, Ancawasi, about 40 kilometers away from Cusco. Jesus has an apprentice who is driving us. He took us to the rock that is in the shape of the eagle and did a meditation. It brings sensibility. It develops stability of the heart and mind. This is a Place of initiation. 7 is perfection of body, emotions, compassion, it helps us speak from spirit.
     The ornate seat carved in the stone receives the sunrise and the energy of the perfection of the creator. The people who came here had no concept of time, just a sense of place. This is where they taught the esoteric philosophy.
     It is a portal to another dimension. The universe is a library and nature opens the door. I is not necessary to have a teacher. The incense is sweet and it calls the spirits who are the true teachers of this place.
     There are carvings of sacred geometry. We are a sacred geometry. This place is about the Balance of masculine and feminine. There were different teachings for men and women. This is the place where we balance yin and yang within ourselves. The Inca came here to reach a new level. The spirits are here looking at us, but we have to see with our hearts to know them.
     Open the part of your hand that is below the pinky in order to allow healing. To breathe, eat and walk is the simple life.  We complicate  life with barriers in our heads. we purify with sound in this place.
     We stood on a big rock right in front of the sacred geometry. It was difficult to breathe because the energy was very powerful. I felt my heart expand and then I felt a bursting sensation in my solar plexus. It became a great void. And then it became the new moon. I felt a deep conviction to be devoted to unification of all nations and beliefs. I was singing a Catholic hymn that spoke of this. Then I heard in my heart that the moon is the mirror that helps us stay connected to the light of the sun so that we never lose our way.
     Next, He took us to a stone that replicated the mountain behind it. He placed my head at the top of it and I raised my hands just off the surface to feel the energy. Wanbli Gleshkla Weiaka (the spirit of my pipe) came in with the vision I received during my hanbleycha. There were streaks of lightening that came down from his eyes and at the base they became tears. I became aware of the line of the stone that passed through my third eye. It was in the shape of a crescent moon. Even as I type the impression and energy are with me. The flash of light that is in the shape of a crescent moon began flashing like it did when I was fasting in the inipi. It was very fast. Jesus was rattling and chanting and when he stopped I stepped away from the stone.
     It changed my eye sight and. I could see the molecular make up of objects and the movement of energy that is life on this planet. I feel as though it was a portal and that something shifted in my DNA. Now I am lighter in spirit freer to move between the realms.
     I am so moved by this place. We put our backs against a rock and two tears welled up in my eyes. They cusped and fell in perfect balance with one another. Slowly they traveled down my face. Suspended in time and following parallel paths. I could feel they were the same tears as the eagle’s lightening bolts and I feel opened in a way I have never known. I feel as though I could never leave this place. My heart is happy and whole here. It has moved me to a new level.

womyn's initiations

December 22, 2009 

   We hiked a long distance to the Sun Temple today. It is a perfectly round structure with terraced walls. Jesus explained that unlike a spiral it represents the concentric circles of life radiating out from the center to infinity. There were beautiful gardens maintained by the people who still farm these terraced slopes and many piles of rubble from ancient times.
     He told us that this was an area used by both men and womyn to begin their path with the first initiations. Priest and priestesses were both respected equally, but performed different functions in the culture.
      He brought us to the place where womyn went to purify as they set their intention to live a spiritual life and begin the rites of initiation. They would fast, pray and recite lessons for three days.
     The area had a large stoned in space that once held water that was about six feet deep. There are stairs built in the wall for the women to use to descend. They had to submerge themselves three times and upon ascending they were dressed in new ceremonial robes and brought to the top of the sun temple in order to be blessed and acknowledge.
     Sophia and I were both troubled by the trash that illustrated the disrespect and loss of these ways. I descended in order to clean the area and knelt at the opening which still trickled sacred water. I blessed myself with it and like a bridge it transported me to another place in time. Before I came up the stairs again I put my head against the rock and had a profound experience that is too difficult to express in words.
     I felt a deep connection with this place and afterwards felt like the teaching for me was to always stay humble. To never aspire to ascend to some level of recognition, but to live a simple life of service. That the true power always comes from surrender and reaching different levels of initiation are not necessary. All that is required is a willingness to say “yes”. I felt very humble in this place and prayed that all womyn would honor themselves and their bodies as holy temples.
     When Sophie and I spoke we both felt like the energy was dead in this place. Forgotten over time. We decided to build a Medicine Wheel and while she was in the well I looked for the necessary stones. There was a perfect place with a circular indention in the ground. It felt very good to honor the commitment of ourselves and all of the womyn who had come before us in this place.

Peru family

December 25, 2009

  I had a wonderful Christmas. I started the day with a traditional breakfast of hot chocolate and fruit cake. My Peruvian family: Rajne, Monica and Olivia are so loving. They were thrilled to see the bathroom (even half finished). Olivia set to work creating her first masterpiece with my gift of art pad, stickers, crayons and markers. She received only one Christmas present, an electronic educational toy. She was thrilled!
   I had a great dinner at Carrie’s with people from several countries. The conversation was esoteric and hopeful about the shift and the role that each of us plays in it. Very powerful to see the world coming together over a vegetarian meal. My contribution a no brainer. A colorful fruit plate. Ahhh no translation of ingredients required.